Thoughts of Beginning

In less than one month I will begin my life long career dream. I will be teaching. This is scary, actually this is past scary this is a terrifying thought to me. I have so many thoughts or doubts going through my mind. However, I do feel as though I was born to teach. The excitement in a child's face when learning something new is a complete adrenaline rush to me. When a child becomes proud of what they know they have accomplished is something indescribable. I love it!!!!

I plan to call my principal this week to try and get materials and try to blueprint a game plan. I am a planned out, spur of the moment type person. Sounds like an oxymoron right? Well in a way that is what I am. Through school I always had a plan of what I was going to do. From the time I was given the assignment my brain would begin outlining plans of creativity to accomplish the task at hand. On more than one occasion I would change the entire plan sometimes hours before the deadline. This is me! The planned spur of the moment girl! (the oxymoron) I was told at times I was crazy for doing such as this. I was surrounded by peers that would work weeks sometimes months on something and I would completely throw mine out and start over. Something better would come to mind I would have to act on it!

I am saying this to say that I know even if I could plan for the entire year knowing myself these plans would change. But I must begin a plan!

I am sure as things get more hectic closer to game time I may not write all that much! However, I have found that this blog is a release for me. There is somewhat of a comfort in knowing that I can type thoughts into the world wide web and someone may read and agree. I have always said that I think that one of the most valuable benefits of talking to a therapist is the feeling of freedom to talk to someone who is a complete stranger. Someone who does not know you personally to place judgement on your voiced feelings! Maybe this is why I have found this blog to be personally enjoyable!

Keep Smiling!

Lots of change!

God always has a purpose! From the time I was a child I felt as though I was put here to teach and to be a mother. Nearly three years ago I married and instantly became a step mother. Two years ago I returned to school to complete my degree in Elementary Education. Almost two months ago I, Kylie Verrell McFarling, walked across the stage and received my diploma. (Actually I received a really nice jacket to put my diploma in when I receive it in the mail.) However, this was one of my greatest accomplishments. I am unsure if ever I have felt more self pride. One week ago I was hired as a full time teacher at an elementary school. Lots have changes have taken place in my life! I have not fully became a true mother yet but that day will come.

I have stated all of the above just to let some of you know the whirlwind of a life I have led in the last couple of years. Things actually feel as though they are coming together. My life is completely different than I ever thought it would be. That has been of the hardest life lessons for myself. I have always been caught up in this is what was "suppose to" happen. When in all actuality I have no say in what is "suppose to" happen. I only have the luxury of following my heart and going along for the ride. For any of you who know me will know that following my heart alone has caused my much heart ache. With age I have learn to follow your heart but with the realization that there is a higher power. Whatever your beliefs, know that you are not now nor ever will be in complete control this is a pointless battle.

Keep Smiling!

Getting Started!!

Here in small town America blogging has been something of the unknown to me. I have been curious when I would hear of people talking about it, just what they did. Well I am here to explore. Because of our little "Mayberry" town many people may not be familiar with blogging. Why post on the net what you just said at Wal-Mart. Lots of the time if it was said or even thought about the story that gets rumored is much more exciting than the truth. Ha Ha! To proceed with why I am here. Lately I have found a friend's blog extremely entertaining! Her witty antics and emotional thoughts have inspired me to join the blogging world. My mother and family members have said in the past that I have a gift of words and writing so here I am. I may not always be witty, at times possibly boring but I am here to share my sometimes bewildering thoughts to the unknown world of blogging! Stay tuned...